Do you ever have one of those days where you wish you could go back to bed and start over? That was my last two years… And it appears it might be spreading into this year.
I was really hoping that 2013 might change for me. That I might finally see the light at the end of this long dark tunnel… But i’m still driving blind. I am too damn young to feel this old.
When I get stressed, I take a long deep breath and pull up blackmountainwebcam.com and imagine I’m back home, looking out over the mountains. It helps… So, so much.
I feel like I need to come up with a contingency plan for when the first one falls through. I dont feel I’m a pessimist, more of a realist. I know how things fall apart. I know you plan for the worst. I guess I need to make a couple phone calls. See if in a pinch I could stay with my dad or a friend I have up there. At least knowing I have a back up plan might help put my mind at ease.
And now… something to make everyone else feel as stupid and unimaginative as I just did. Enjoy.